I'm singing for you..

There are no coincidences in this world. There's only the inevitable.
~ Yuuko (xxxHolic)

I think the moment I know you should not considered as a coincidence anymore. A lot of thing happened because of you. I changed a lot, because of you. I smile a lot, because of you. For all the same and differences aspect we had, I always wonder what kind of destiny we share together?

The moment I realized I love you, is the moment I understand that I should not. You are like a sun, shining so bright yet unreachable. No matter how hard my hand try to reach you. Does my feeling reach you?

Well, I don't care anymore. I crave for you more and more. I want to be your smile. I want to be your strength. I want to be by your side. I want to hug you. I want to be your happiness. Right now, I do what I can do for you. I wish for your happiness. I wish for your health. I wish for your smile. I pray for you.. Everything..

Hey, now I'm singing for you.
I don't care if anybody would listen. I know you will not listen too. I don't care. As long you are smile there. As long as you are happy there. I don't mind for being not happy, as long as you are happy. I always pray for your happiness, on each single day, each single time, each single breath..

Anata no chikara ni naritai. Ima no watashi wa, anata wa egao dake de mo ii.
Egao dake de ii yo. Anata no egao wa watashi no chikara ni nareru kara.
Watashi no taiyou, o shiwase ni..
Suki da yo, aishiteru..

I love you, my shining bright sun.

For my shining bright sun,

30 December, 2011

Skill are meant to be improved

I don't care what kind of person you are, as long as you have the skill I needed. The fact that your skill is not grading down is the same as you are not improving. Someday, you'll can't keep up with me. Skill are meant to be improved. If you think that you are stable, it means that you are started to grading down your own skill

I read this sentence on Iryuu ~Team Medical Dragon~, manga volume 20. The sentence is quite simple. Implying that if you think you are now in a stable condition, but in the fact you are not improving, then it means you are grading down your own skill. Skill are meant to be improved.

Remember what the genius, Steve Jobs say?

Stay hungry, stay foolish.

I think it have the same meaning. Stay hungry means, never be pleased. Stay foolish means, never feel you are smart or you are on the top. So over all, it means, you have to be never pleased, you have to always try something new and improved yourself because you are not and will never be the top.

I think I've degrade my own skill. At this moment, I saw that I don't have any improvement in every single task I had. I admitted that I 'm being lazy on this semester and I can't be like this forever! I'm really afraid that I'll not passed on this semester because of my own slacking state.

Reading the first sentence, I'm afraid if my skill is going to be down. Actually, I think it is stable, but that means I'm not improving even a bit. I already learn a lot of programming language like C, C++, C#, Lisp, Phyton, Ruby, Java, Flash programming, even PHP. Thinking that I'm stable, and after reading that sentence, I'll try making a program with those language and I can't do nothing. I already forgetting all of them.  At that time, I'm really regretting all of my slacking action and I have to start over all of this. No more slacking!

So I came up with one conclusion: even if you already master it, if you are not polish it again and again, you will forget all of it and all of your try to master it will be a non-sense act.

so, think twice if you think you are stable.
remember, skill are always meant to be improved!

December Wish ♥

Please welcome, December. The end of this year is coming. If you have winter on your country, I will be so envy. YES, no winter in Indonesia, no snow! But I do want snow! GIMMEEEEE!!! *bricked*


//calm down

The one thing I sure remember about December is, SNOW (but no snow here). And the most important is... Winter Solstice. What is Winter Solstice? Winter Solstice remarks of the first day of Winter. It is about 21 Dec or 22 Dec. I do love cold weather rather than hot weather, maybe because I live on such a tropical country make me carving for cold weather or maybe if I can have a wish, I hope there is snow in Indonesia.

Because I'm a muslim, I did not celebrate Christmas, so that day have no mean for me. And New Year too, I'm really happy if I can spend it with my friends, BUT, my asthma will not let me go on such a cold night. Okay, I'll be home and just drink my hot cocoa ♥

Okay, lets go to the main topic. My December Wish :
I want him to smile, everyday. I want him to be happy, everytime. 
I want him to be success, for the entire of his life. I want to meet him. 
I miss him so much.

It is really different with my November wish. I do realize why, I adore someone and I feel so thankful to him, so I want him to be happy for the entire of his life. Of course I want him to be by my side, but I know it is impossible, I know my own limit, so I just can hope he is happy there on his life.