Hellofest 9 - Anima Expo

My first event's volunteer experience which I'm applying myself, Hellofest 9 - Anima Expo was held at Kolam Renang Senayan, DKI Jakarta. I've always wanted to volunteer at event outside school/uni, and Hellofest make my dream come true.

Noh Performance and Exhibition, Japan Foundation

Yesterday, I went to a Noh exhibition held by Japan Foundation. The exhibition was free, without any admission fee or reservation at all.  And, I chose to go yesterday (Wed) because there held Noh dance performance specially on that day. This exhibition held to commemorate the 55th year of diplomatic relations between Japan and Indonesia.

Don't worry if you don't understand what a Noh masks is, I'll explain to you. Noh masks (能面 noh-men or 面 omote) is Japanese traditional masks which used on Japanese classic musical drama. It carved from blocks of Japanese cypress or called Hinoki (檜), and all of the masks has their very own name. You can see a lot of Noh masks on this exhibition, but no touch ! I read on some news that Noh masks usually very expensive, so, yes, no touch. You can take picture tho. 

.... a dream, Vampire vs Butler

I'm searching for my mom to her 'new' work office (?), telling her for buy meats before the meats sold out. Everything feels like the Armageddon, everyone trying to survive and bought a lot of food for survival preparation. 

I met a man, he is an artist, singer, and a concealed butler. This man seems familiar, and I love him. We go to a certain shopping mall and we had a shopping date on the bookstore. He was searching for a folder/binder for his paper works. But, because he is a popular artist, we shop secretly on the bookstore, and it was kinda difficult to find a folder with design he would love to.

After that, we go with a bus and found that there are vampires (around 4) targeting us. We fight the vampires on the bus, and I manage to steal their 'super long magic wand'. The magic wand can freeze the vampire for a certain seconds if you know the right spell, but I don't know the spell so I'm just hitting the vampire until I found the spell. But just a few after I used it, the crystal on the magic wand cracked and I can't used the spell anymore, and waiting until the crystal restored.

We manage to taken down the 3 of them, and we knocked the 4th out the bus. But the 4th fall and met my little brother and kidnap him. I'm crying, thinking that my little brother will get eaten, but the 4th vampire is a hairdresser so he had his hair cut. The artist changed into his butler costume, and I hug him before the last fight. A long long hug, long long hug before he fight.

And I wake up.
Checking on my phone, it's 6.40 am, 7 October 2013.
//sorry for my bad English, I woke up and wrote it down immediately.

Emotional abuse.

emotional abuse is when someone does something to hurt you, and when you express your feelings, that you’re upset, they turn it around to be something you did to hurt them and they force you to apologize for it, and your feelings, like always, are rendered invalid and silenced, forever damaging the ability to trust others with your feelings because they always are used against you.

....... HAPPENED A LOT.

Sheep? Here? Seriously?

Oh stuffy creature, what are you doing here ?

Thank god, I'm keeping my sanity and didn't run chase after you.
Can I have a sheep doll please *puppy eyes*

Sumo Tournament in Jakarta 2013

You won't believe it. Sumo, in Jakarta, Indonesia? Yes, we brought the best rikishi to Indonesia! Err, not me, I mean, the organizer. I'm just a volunteer.

Found you, little hairy creature!

Where are you ?

There you are !

 

Shyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (?)

If I live at Hogwartz...

Good morning ! er... good afternoon?

It was raining all night and morning was clouded with mist, big probability that I will sleep again for the second time. But no ! I went for a blog-walking today and found an interesting quiz again. This time I take a quiz from funasdodgeball[dot]com about what if I live at Hogwartz. You know about Hogwartz, don't you? It's a famous school from Harry Potter series. And here is my result:

 

First part of the result. Okay, a half-blood Griffindor. And wow ! Wolf patronus ! That would be cool ! But, my boyfriend is Draco Malfoy, seriously? LOL Well, I kinda love bad role but Draco please fix your hair, I don't like it. My best class is Defense Against Dark Arts, and I would love to be the seeker on Quidditch game *___*

 

Second part of the result. I can't help but laughing reading HP's comment, "Why she is interested in Malfoy I'll never know". Exactly ! Well, actually, some people told me the same (change Malfoy to my boyfriend name) xD

..... wait, why the game choose my name as 'Tiffany' ? xD
May I choose another name, please ? xD

Ice Tea (Ice Block version)

Hello ~ ! Long time not write here, university (always) kill a lot of time. So, now I will explain new method to enjoy a tea. (what? why so sudden?)

1) Go to a supermarket, and buy a tea. Like this :

2) Put into a freezer, and wait until the tea frozen.

3) Get out the ice from the package, and place it on a mug.

Done! Enjoy your block ice tea xD
Have fun ! xD

Okay.
(This post only an excuse for being stupid)
(People, don't ever place a drink on freezer ! It will froze !)
(LOL)

Trying Doubutsu Uranai (動物占い)

When I do some blog-walking, I found an interesting link about Doubutsu Uranai, or written as 動物占い in Japanese. Doubutsu Uranai is a fortune-telling which break down human characteristic into 12 different kind of animals using date of birth. You can check your own Doubutsu Uranai at english site or japanese site.

I'm not saying fortune-teller is an absolute thing but sometimes it's fun to check our characteristics. I don't really interested with future fortune-telling :-S

I borned at April 7. So my results are:

You are Purple Panther who tends to be precautious, and unlike your gentle atmosphere you are strong-minded and courageous woman.

You don't listen to other people, and carry out with your opinion. Although you don't possess coolness to see things objectively, and analyze subjects intelligently, you have great natural instinct. You have flexible thoughts, and can lead life with perseverance. You will not miss opportunity. You can adapt and sort out difficulties that you come across. You can face the things that interest you with unusual effort and spirit, but you will not even try to see those things that you are not interested.

You seem like a gentle and kind person, but really you possess lots of problems and are always struggling within yourself. People are unable to understand your complicated feelings. This increase your problems further. You are a person with great dreams and are active and possess straight forward baldness. You can show this talent in your career. You will not be able to stay quietly at home as a housewife.

Classifications by color:

Panther basic personality:

1. Panthers are uncompromising with honor and pride
2. Panthers like to be the center
3. Panthers want to talk about themselves
4. Panthers like new things
5. Panthers are smart dressers
6. Panthers like to change jobs
7. Panthers wear their feelings on their sleeve
8. Panthers are easily hurt
9. Panthers have a strong sense of justice
10. Panthers don't want to retire

Classifications by group:

I'm panther type so I'm on Full Moon group. Full Moon Group is Objective-Oriented type and Other Person Conscious, means:
- Objective oriented type
This type of person acts after thorough and careful planning. And if they decide on something, they will not want to change their mind in the middle. They work hard to achieve the set objective, and think very high of achievements.
- Other person consciousness.
Person in this side prefer to act according to other peoples pace. Therefore, even if they have their own opinion, they can give priority to other people's demands, and do not feel stress.

............

Results from Japanese site:
(I did the uranai at March 3rd, so it's in Hinamatsuri style)(sorry for rough translation)

Phanter.
スタイリッシュな目立ちたがり屋 (Stylish and Attention Seeker)

俊敏な黒ひょうのようにスマートであることを大事にしているあなた。メンツやプライドにこだわり、リーダーシップを取りたがります。しかもオシャレで新しもの好き。最新の情報・流行を敏感にキャッチして、人より１歩前を歩きます。
(Just like a panther, you are a smart person. Uncompromising with honor and pride, often given responsibilities as leader because of the high level of leadership. Moreover, you are stylish and love to try something new. You always one step forward from the other in the matter of newest information or in fashion trends)

恋愛は見た目重視。性格は二の次です。普段は感情表現がいまいち苦手なくせに好きな相手には素直に自分を見せて、持ち前のリーダーシップでデートの仕切りもばっちりです。
(For romance, you are appearance-oriented. Next is personality. You are having problem to express your honest feelings to the others, but in front of your beloved one, you can show yourself honestly. Born with leadership, your date plan choice is perfect).

Character analysis by gender:

黒ひょう女性は、女王様
(Panther woman, is a queen)

黒ひょうの女性は、弱みを見せない女王様タイプ。美人が多くて、おしゃれ命。
本人も華やかなムードだからか、人がうらやむ華やかな職業や男性に憧れます。
(Panther woman is a type who wont show their weaknesses to other. Beautiful and stylish.
Because herself always in gorgeous mood, she adore a spectacular man and spectacular job which can make everyone jealous)

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Long long page just about fortune-telling. 
But yes, I don't like showing my weaknesses in front of another person, sometimes I can't even cry in front of my boyfriend or friend. I'm not stylish, but friends often said they want what I wear. I love trying something new and I tend to get bored easily.

Once again, You can check your own Doubutsu Uranai at english site or japanese site.
How's your result? Is it amusing?
xD

Kokoronotomo TV program launching event + でんぱ組.Inc (dempagumi.inc) mini live

Just one day before the event, my friend ask me to go with her to a launching event of a new television program titled "kokoronotomo". I'm actually not really want to go anywhere because I'm so tired with university thingy, but because she said she have no one to do with her so I decide to go with her. The event held at Plaza Senayan, Jakarta, February 16, 2013.

It's Saturday so I still have to attend a class at uni, and then I met my friend at around 1 pm. I was stupidly use a high heels and stupidly hurt my own feet because walk too much. I thought I should buy a flat shoes when I arrived on Plaza Senayan, but somehow I feel too lazy to walk so I keep using it all day. Yay I survive with high heels FULL DAY (sorry, I'm a sneaker girl xD)

I understand one thing, I try too hard

February 2013, 5 years already? maybe. This problem haunt me, unexpectedly.

Everyone thinks I'm a strong girl, but there is no such things as a strong person. Every person laugh, every person cry, every person has their own problem. The differences is just how they express it. I don't like showing my emotion to anyone, I don't like people see my weaknesses, I don't like people see me crying, and the problem is I never think I have a problem. People make me angry, and in seconds I forgive them, but in the other hand I can't forget the pain they caused to me.

Up until now, I still can't forget how they betrayed me, how they lied to me, how they blame everything to me. The pain haunts me, yet I didn't realized it till now. I always think everything is fine, I can do this, and I can go through all of this. But, no.

Unexpectedly, I let my tears fall down a lot without realizing what is really happened to me. Recently, I can't eat anymore, I feel so stressed and feels like having a heavy, heavy burden. I don't understand what happened exactly.

But now I understand.
I try too hard.
I try too much.
I can't slow down.

But I know, I don't have much options. If I didn't get myself busy, those pains will haunt me again, and again. I can't slow down, or else I will found myself depressed. I don't know what should I do, I don't know what exactly I want.

I know, I can go through this. I shouldn't let myself stop, I shouldn't let myself down. Maybe I still can't found the answer but I will continue to walk.

Keep smile ! Keep positive ! Life is a process !