My wish..

I really wish for it..
For my entire 18 years living..
No one know it..
Yet I really crave for it..

But no one realize it..
No one know..

Will it come at 19th?
I guess the answer is still no.

I guess that because of my smartness so they cant..
Or maybe I was never special for them..
Who knows? yet I really crave for it..

I really wish for..