You, you.

He need to be with her.
He must to be with her.
And the most important thing
He love her with his whole heart.

She who do not know love.
She who do not know the real love.
She who easily change her man of heart.

He need to be with her.
He need to teach her love.
Because you are the man I love.
Because you were the man I loved.

Teach her how it is to love someone dearly.
So she wouldn't go to another man behind your back.
So she wouldn't hold her hand to another man behind your back.
So she wouldn't hug another man behind your back.
So she wouldn't throw her heart to whoever man confess to her easily again.

What if she hurt him?
Like what she always do.
What if she lied to him? 
Like what she always do.

Just remember,
I love you. You were the man I loved. 
So please, be happy.

Maybe, maybe.

“Maybe we were just two strangers who crossed paths…
Maybe our eyes locked so that our souls could meet..
Maybe I smiled and sparked a light in your dark…
Maybe you intentionally bumped into me to get me to look at you..
Maybe I dropped my things so you’d help me pick them up…
Maybe you chose that seat so that you’d be able to look at me…
Maybe I kept looking out the window so that our eyes wouldn’t meet…
Maybe your smiles weren’t for the book you seemed to read..
Maybe my blushing wasn’t about something I saw outside..

Maybe just maybe we’re a story that we tell our kids as we tuck them to sleep..
And
Maybe just maybe we’re just two strangers who crossed paths walking on a street..”


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I am trying, believe me.

I am grateful to found you in my life, and let you helped me painted various colors to fix my ink-ruined pages. But I am not ready to be parted from your fragments.

... yes 

I know
we humans will never ever feel ready for anything.

Matcha Ice Cream haunted my dreams...

Since my friend invited me to Hong Tang, I can't forget the flavor of their rich matcha ice cream. And my favorite part, you can add extra topping. Which means, I can add red beans into my dessert. My two favorite things in one dessert, just BAAM ! ♥

20 facts..... err random things about me

Actually, I was tagged on instagram for #20factsaboutme about 2 months ago (wow!). To be honest, I don't see the point of writing a long post on instagram, so I decided to write it up here on my blog.

As the balloons reach the sky...

I missed you.

And the worst part is...

I can do nothing about it.

About dream...

So many doors of opportunity but you can't choose any of it.
You get stuck. Hit the same wall, again and again.
Just how many times I need to hit this wall until I found the right way to break it?

Normal mode, transparent mode

A news with video shows up on my yahoo dash this afternoon. The title is "Hantu Pecahkan Kaca Terekam Kamera CCTV" or "Ghost broke up glass, as CCTV record" in English. Actually this title is kinda funny for me. Sometimes it hit me why ghost can go through things but it still broke things? Did it forgot to change mode from 'normal mode' into 'transparent mode'?

Sweet and Energetic Deredere? lol

Hi everyone ! Indonesia is hot and sunny as always, and I suddenly feels like a lazy cat. Yeah, the weather is way too hot and make me didn't want to step outside even a bit. Just me, bed, laptop, and the air conditioner. Phew.

Maybe you guys wondering why I post Orihime Inoue picture. The answer is a personality test I tried on the internet few days ago. You can find a lot of personality test in internet, it's fun anyway. (EDIT 9/16 : Too bad the quiz deleted recently) The test is about 'Dere personality. Check my result below !

Farewell, Christina

I still can't believe it Dr. Yang will leave Grey's Anatomy series. She is one of my favorites character, and she will leave the series. Ugh, I might need a lot of tissues. In the series, Cristina moved to Preston Burkes' hospital in Zurich Switzerland. I don't really remember the hospital's name, but anyway, she is going to be the head of the hospital. 

Anyway, stop thinking and just do it

I've just finished watching Yowakutemo Katemasu 「弱くても勝てます～青志先生とへっぽこ高校球児の野望～」 episode 7 today. After the title, this drama focused on a very weak baseball team who struggles to win.   

The story begin when Tamo Aoshi (Ninomiya Kazunari) come to his almamater, Jotoku High School, as a teacher and eventually become Baseball Club coach. Jotoku High School is a prestigious private high school consists of intelligent people, but seems pretty laid-back because they let 3rd grade students to continue their club activities.

Cake? Candles? Wow I'm 22 now

The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate. (Oprah Winfrey)

For 22 years of my life, this is my very first birthday which I spent by doing nothing. Erm, no, I spent my precious birthday by sleeping all the day. When I woke up, it's already 10 am and everybody already into their own activity (school, work, etc). I did choir a bit, checking social media, and then back to my sleep.

You’re damn right, I do

Do I think that I’m smarter than you? You’re damn right I do. But if you think that means I can’t kick your ass up and down this floor, take a swing and see what happens. - Harvey Specter (Suits)

Painful, more than anything

Loving you, is painful. More than anything I could ever imagined.
Missing you, is excruciating.  More than any torment I ever known.
How I wish I could fall in love with someone else but you.

A binding chain, a tight and forceful red tie.
Counting the crazy ticks clock made with hours.
How I wish our time could entangled to each other.

Birthday Personality : 7 April

I got fever recently, I have a lot of free times so I browsed my own birthday. Since I only know one celebrity with same birthday with me, Jackie Chan, I would like to know other famous person with same birthday with me.  I browsed, read, and ..... I don't know most of them lmao.

Undimmed by time. Unbound by death.

Three years has passed since I saw your face.
I wonder if I come to you at night, in dreams.
In the day, as memories.
Do I haunted your hours the way you haunted mine?

And I wonder if you see me, when you look at her.
If we have souls, they are made of the love we share.
Undimmed by time.
Unbound by death.

-- Oblivion, 2013

20 Things That Mentally Strong People Don’t Do

I found a great article on elitedaily about what things that mentally strong people don't do. I don't write this article, it's written by Paul Hudson.  Enjoy

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I often write about the things I believe we all should be doing, trying or experimenting with in order to maximize our success and happiness. However, it’s not always the things we do that make the biggest difference in our lives; it’s often the things we avoid doing that have the biggest effect. As human beings, we have a strong aversion to not doing; we feel that in order to produce results, there must be an initial action.

However, because we are almost always doing something, piling on more and more often has a negative effect, rather than a positive one. Among the mentally strong, there are several actions that are avoided in order to produce the greatest benefit in the shortest period of time.

These actions are those that the mentally strong avoid, and that we should consider adapting as our own:

JLPT and self-discipline

I passed JLPT N2 !! （≧▽≦）

For you who didn't know about JLPT, JLPT is an acronym for Japanese Language Proficiency Test, organized by the Japan Foundation and Japan Educational Exchanges and Services. The tests are divided into five levels, from N1 through N5, with the N5 being the easiest. Fluent can be construed as N1 level, while business-level could be translated as N2 level. More info about JLPT is on the website.

I thought I won't passed, yet I did ! After the test, I felt so depressed as I couldn't answer all of the question. I felt that I would be 100% failed. But I passed! Yay! I myself surprised when I check the website.Thanks for everyone who helped me with my study, and thanks for all of you who congratulate me, I'm really grateful and proud to have all of you.

Hellofest 9 - Anima Expo

My first event's volunteer experience which I'm applying myself, Hellofest 9 - Anima Expo was held at Kolam Renang Senayan, DKI Jakarta. I've always wanted to volunteer at event outside school/uni, and Hellofest make my dream come true.

Noh Performance and Exhibition, Japan Foundation

Yesterday, I went to a Noh exhibition held by Japan Foundation. The exhibition was free, without any admission fee or reservation at all.  And, I chose to go yesterday (Wed) because there held Noh dance performance specially on that day. This exhibition held to commemorate the 55th year of diplomatic relations between Japan and Indonesia.

Don't worry if you don't understand what a Noh masks is, I'll explain to you. Noh masks (能面 noh-men or 面 omote) is Japanese traditional masks which used on Japanese classic musical drama. It carved from blocks of Japanese cypress or called Hinoki (檜), and all of the masks has their very own name. You can see a lot of Noh masks on this exhibition, but no touch ! I read on some news that Noh masks usually very expensive, so, yes, no touch. You can take picture tho.