I'm singing for you..

There are no coincidences in this world. There's only the inevitable.
~ Yuuko (xxxHolic)

I think the moment I know you should not considered as a coincidence anymore. A lot of thing happened because of you. I changed a lot, because of you. I smile a lot, because of you. For all the same and differences aspect we had, I always wonder what kind of destiny we share together?

The moment I realized I love you, is the moment I understand that I should not. You are like a sun, shining so bright yet unreachable. No matter how hard my hand try to reach you. Does my feeling reach you?

Well, I don't care anymore. I crave for you more and more. I want to be your smile. I want to be your strength. I want to be by your side. I want to hug you. I want to be your happiness. Right now, I do what I can do for you. I wish for your happiness. I wish for your health. I wish for your smile. I pray for you.. Everything..

Hey, now I'm singing for you.
I don't care if anybody would listen. I know you will not listen too. I don't care. As long you are smile there. As long as you are happy there. I don't mind for being not happy, as long as you are happy. I always pray for your happiness, on each single day, each single time, each single breath..

Anata no chikara ni naritai. Ima no watashi wa, anata wa egao dake de mo ii.
Egao dake de ii yo. Anata no egao wa watashi no chikara ni nareru kara.
Watashi no taiyou, o shiwase ni..
Suki da yo, aishiteru..

I love you, my shining bright sun.

For my shining bright sun,

30 December, 2011

Skill are meant to be improved

I don't care what kind of person you are, as long as you have the skill I needed. The fact that your skill is not grading down is the same as you are not improving. Someday, you'll can't keep up with me. Skill are meant to be improved. If you think that you are stable, it means that you are started to grading down your own skill

I read this sentence on Iryuu ~Team Medical Dragon~, manga volume 20. The sentence is quite simple. Implying that if you think you are now in a stable condition, but in the fact you are not improving, then it means you are grading down your own skill. Skill are meant to be improved.

Remember what the genius, Steve Jobs say?

Stay hungry, stay foolish.

I think it have the same meaning. Stay hungry means, never be pleased. Stay foolish means, never feel you are smart or you are on the top. So over all, it means, you have to be never pleased, you have to always try something new and improved yourself because you are not and will never be the top.

I think I've degrade my own skill. At this moment, I saw that I don't have any improvement in every single task I had. I admitted that I 'm being lazy on this semester and I can't be like this forever! I'm really afraid that I'll not passed on this semester because of my own slacking state.

Reading the first sentence, I'm afraid if my skill is going to be down. Actually, I think it is stable, but that means I'm not improving even a bit. I already learn a lot of programming language like C, C++, C#, Lisp, Phyton, Ruby, Java, Flash programming, even PHP. Thinking that I'm stable, and after reading that sentence, I'll try making a program with those language and I can't do nothing. I already forgetting all of them.  At that time, I'm really regretting all of my slacking action and I have to start over all of this. No more slacking!

So I came up with one conclusion: even if you already master it, if you are not polish it again and again, you will forget all of it and all of your try to master it will be a non-sense act.

so, think twice if you think you are stable.
remember, skill are always meant to be improved!

December Wish ♥

Please welcome, December. The end of this year is coming. If you have winter on your country, I will be so envy. YES, no winter in Indonesia, no snow! But I do want snow! GIMMEEEEE!!! *bricked*


//calm down

The one thing I sure remember about December is, SNOW (but no snow here). And the most important is... Winter Solstice. What is Winter Solstice? Winter Solstice remarks of the first day of Winter. It is about 21 Dec or 22 Dec. I do love cold weather rather than hot weather, maybe because I live on such a tropical country make me carving for cold weather or maybe if I can have a wish, I hope there is snow in Indonesia.

Because I'm a muslim, I did not celebrate Christmas, so that day have no mean for me. And New Year too, I'm really happy if I can spend it with my friends, BUT, my asthma will not let me go on such a cold night. Okay, I'll be home and just drink my hot cocoa ♥

Okay, lets go to the main topic. My December Wish :
I want him to smile, everyday. I want him to be happy, everytime. 
I want him to be success, for the entire of his life. I want to meet him. 
I miss him so much.

It is really different with my November wish. I do realize why, I adore someone and I feel so thankful to him, so I want him to be happy for the entire of his life. Of course I want him to be by my side, but I know it is impossible, I know my own limit, so I just can hope he is happy there on his life.

Maybe this asthma will kill me someday...

I don't know what to do. Everything seems so wrong. 
This case already happened since monday (11/21) and tomorrow is Friday (11/25)
I'm afraid to sleep because everytime I wake up, my asthma will come again.
But if I'm not sleep, the asthma can be worsen.

And this medicine is stupid. There is no expired date on it, I mean, no expired year.
It is only "Nov10A19/nov15", oh cmon, is it 10 november or november 15 from what year to what year?? 

I dont understand what that code mean. I'm not a medical student =___=
It is already 11 pm here, no one can take me to any 24 hours drug store..
Ah,  I dont care. I just drink the tablet of this medicine.
My asthma got reduced but now my chest is really hurt, my cough did not reduced even a bit.
Ahahahaha stupid.

I have english presentation tomorrow but I dont caaaaare~
Well.. lets have arashi medley till morning come! xD

Monday train is surely piling up stress

I always taking train from my house to the university because they are in different city. I'm taking early train because I have class on 7 am, so I'm taking 5.30 am 's train. I always go to the university in a dark morning, yihaaa xD ahahaha <-- stress

 

courtesy from ItteQ. Even there is street musician on Economic Train xD

Okay, Monday is a busy day. A lot of people went off early in monday morning. Well, busy people. There is two kind of train in Indonesia, one is Commuter Line (with AC) and Economic train (without AC). I can't take Economic because it is too crowded!! If you are Japanese, Imoto-san from ItteQ TV show already try Economic train and she.. almost dead xDD Well, it is funny to see her trying it in busy time, it is not safe for girls especially me because I have to bring my laptop everyday ahahahaha .Well, Commuter Line is crowded too (in busy hours like 6 am till 8 am when people are went off for work and 5 pm till 9 pm when people went off for home) but the early 5.30 am train is not really crowded. In Commuter Line train, there is girls-only place too, so it is safe from sexual-harassment case.

Okay back to topic.
In Monday, the 5.30's train is crowd. Why? because Monday is Busy day. I'm trying to pack myself so I can go in, BUT there is annoying ma'am's group sitting NOT on the train's chair. They are using packed chair and sitting in front of the unused door. The situation is much like this: 

This photo is not mine, and this is on the mixed place. 

But the situation is much like this. There is people using their own chair on the train.

You know how I feel. The train is crowd, and there is people using their own chair. THEY ARE WASTING PLACE! GOSH, THIS IS MENTAL-HARASSMENT! SRSLY. Even there is a rules saying that we can't used our own chair on the train. I think it is okay to use your own chair IF the train is not crowded, I really don't mind it BUT if the train is full please do not used it!!

And you know, people keep saying "please stand up ma'am, the train is crowded, please let the other have space" and they are ignoring it. And there someone saying, "dear teacher, please don't use your own chair" <-- well from this talk I know that the ma'am group is all teacher.  And they are replying : "it is okay, we will set off from train on Lenteng Agung". In that time, Lenteng Agung station is remain two station later. Well, no one complaining, after all we have just to resist for another two station.

Two station passed, they are not moving! And they are set off in the same station with me, on the next 8 station on Cawang station. Do you can imagined how I feel?? Angry, lost of my patience, and disappointed. 

I'm really disappointed because they are TEACHER, oh gosh, where is your INTEGRITY as a TEACHER? The train is crowded and it is hard even to stand but they are just sitting in their own chair and babbling and mumbling and talking randomly =___= you are only a teacher if you are at school?? so, if a teacher are not at school they are not a teacher? well this kind of thing can be called mental-harassment. We are buying ticket so we deserved for our space, they are buying ticket and I'm buying too. People buying too, so we shared the same train. But please can we consider each other, we are the same! We can be so tired too, not just you so you dont have right to just sit as you please with your own chair and make the space for other gone. One space for people sitting by their own chair can be consider for two space for people standing. Ah, I really bad at explaining in English. But you sure know what I mean. Is it okay for people to using their own chair IF the train is not crowded, but IF it is crowded, please DO NOT USE IT.

Stupid is when..

Stupid is when you are rushing to the bathroom to take a bath because you think you are going to be late, and after take a quick bath, you realized that you are forgot to take a towel before it and now you are confused how to go back to your room without a towel covering your body.

See? This stupid thing happened to me in the morning, about 4 am. I'm not waking up late, I woke up at 3 am as usual. But then somehow time are moving faster and I realized that it is about 4 am but I'm not taking a bath already. So I rushing down to the bathroom since my bedroom is on the second floor. I quickly taking a bath and .... where is my towel?? 0.o

Ah, I forgot to take it before I go to the bathroom. Stupid.
Aaah, how I go back to my room without a towel?!

Think . (´・ω・) . Think . Think .

It still 4 am, who is waking up beside of me?? So, I rushing out from the bathroom without a towel and quickly taking my little sister's towel and running up to my room. Back to my room, I was just giving a facepalm and laughing over myself (＾Д＾)ﾌ
Such a stupid morning.


FYI, I waking up so early because I have to take morning train to the university. The first morning train will depart on 5.30 am, so yeah, so early (・∀・) and Indonesian people are not using a bathrobe, we are using a simple towel.

OHNovember~

Do you know that November is a peanut butter jam lover month? 

I bet you didn't know.

I never know about that too xDD ahahahaha
I'm just reading about this somewhere

Every new month come, I really love to do trivia like this ♪

Wishlist? Still the same with the other month. 

I want to be the better me.
Wish me luck :)

8 Deadly Words used by a Woman

 
Man are from Mars, Women are from Venus.
Maybe a lot of people has known this phrase. Man and woman created to completing each others, but they have a lot of differences. Especially on talks and behavior. To win a woman, is easy, just understand them. But man are hardly to understand what woman means, and so do woman. Woman usually used words but what they mean is completely different. So this is the common 8 deadly words which used by a woman when they are in a bad mood:

1. Fine
This is the word woman use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Nothing
This is the calm before storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing (2) usually end with fine (1).

3. Go ahead!
Okay, this is not a permission, this is a dare. Don't do it!

4. Loud Sigh
This is not a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (refer to number 2).

5. That's okay
This is the most dangerous statement of women can make to a man. "That's okay" means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

6. Five minutes
If she getting depressed, this means a half of hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch a game before helping around the house.

7. Whatever
Is a woman way of saying F*** Y**.

8. Don't worry about it. I got it.
Another dangerous statement. This mean something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now dong it herself. This will result in a man asking "What's wrong?" and woman response to number 3.

So..
Man, are you dare to keep us angry? :-)

Start a bilingual (or trilingual) blog

I just want to make an announcement that starting today

I will start this blog in bilingual language or maybe trilingual language 

on Indonesian, Japanese, and English. 

よろしくどうぞ

Killing time with some internet personality quiz

Sometimes we can use internet to kill time, so I tried some personality quiz. I never believe in horoscope or fortune-telling, because I create my own future and I don't need anyone to tell me what should I do.  I believe in my own potential. But I love personality quiz, it feels more like an IQ test which have some personality assessment on it. You can try this quiz too here

Your rainbow is shaded red.

What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate energetic people. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Let's see now....

1. Color is Red
Yes, my favorite color is red. Always red, sometimes pink and white and black. Red-color theme fashion is a must.

2. You are a passionate person.
Am I? People tend to said that I should focus on one thing which I can't because they said I have passion in too much field. I'm adventurous and love to try something new. As I love too much field, a question such "what's your hobby?" can be so troublesome for me. .............. what is "passionate" anyway? :P

3. You appreciate energetic people.
Yes, I don't like pessimistic behavior. I prefer to have energetic people around me.

4. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you.
 Exactly. I realize I tend to get bored easily, so sometimes I should keep motivating myself to keep doing somethings. And yes, I want a friend who can keep up with me and my high-tension behavior.

Meet and Greet with Takahashi Minami (AKB48)

This event held by Official JKT48 at atrium of Plaza Senayan, Jakarta. I got lucky and win the handshake ticket. The artist who held the meet and greet is Takahashi Minami aka Takamina, the member of AKB48 and de-facto captain of AKB48. She is really cute ♥

Lucky 200 persons who win the handshake ticket have to take the ticket a day before (Monday, 03 October 2011) on the same place (Atrium Plaza Senayan). I luckily got it, at the number 120. Because Monday is a busy day (I got morning class at 7 am, and evening class at 1 pm and 4 pm) I have to go the place in hurry. Actually my university and  Plaza Senayan is quite near, but you know, Jakarta is the traffic jam city, so even if you take Transjakarta busway, it still take a lot of time.

Thank you, my shining bright sun

since when you are already there
shining so bright like a sun
will someday my words reach you?
will someday i can smile beside you?

keep inspire me
keep burn my spirit
changing me little by little
will someday we can meet?
I have something to say to you
Those simple but the the stronger words
"Thank you..."

I know maybe this is impossible
I want to try my best
Until I know this is really impossible
I know there is nothing impossible for us
I believe on that day, the day you change me

Love is not the right words
This love is somehow different
Even I still didn't know what kind of feeling is this

Tears can easily come
When I realize you are really far, far away
You are really like a sun
Shining so bright yet so far unreachable
I believe on that day, the day you change me

Yes,
the day I know you
the day you change me

One thing I know
The only reason I keep fighting now are you
I put my hope this high
Yet I know it will hurts if I fell off

Can you please keep shining?
Can you please keep smiling?
Can you please keep fighting?
Can you please keep inspiring?
Would you smile so I can stop cry?
Would you shine so I can smile from my hearts?

I want to be someone that can help you someday
Like you help me even you didn't know it
I want to be someone who can make you smile
Like you always make me smile even you didn't know it
I want to be someone who can stop your tears
Like you always stop my tears from flowing

Thank you
and I love you
please be happy there
I'll always pray for your happiness

For my sun
(Soranarumi, 2011.09.27)

And this time, I swear..

Saat itu, gw udah mutusin kalo gw gak akan goyah.
Gw sudah bulat dengan keputusan yang gw pikirkan selama bulan puasa ini.
Semakin bertambahnya hari, seakan hati gw disokong hingga menjadi semakin kuat.
Memang ini keputusan yang harus kuambil.

Saat itu, gw berjanji sama diri gw sendiri.
Saat dia mengulangi kesalahan yang sama untuk ke-sekian kalinya..
Kesalahan yang terus dia ulang tanpa rasa bersalah.
Gw gak akan maafin dia lagi.

Saat itu, gw memutuskan kalau memang dia mungkin bukan pilihan yang tepat.
Saat semua kata maaf itu sudah tidak mempunyai arti lagi.
Saat semua kata yang meluncur dari bibirnya hanya untuk kepentingannya sendiri.
Saat semua kesalahannya ditimpakan kepadaku tanpa ia pikirkan lagi. 
Saat ia terus berkhayal dan berkhayal tentang hal yang faktanya ia jungkir balikkan sendiri.

Setiap nafas, setiap detik, tiap menit, tiap jam...
Gw harus segera memutuskan apa yang seharusnya gw lakukan.
Yang memang harusnya sejak lama sudah kulakukan.
バイバイしよう．．．

Silahkan kau terus berada dalam kegelapan karena aku sudah tidak mau menarikmu dari sana lagi.
Silahkan kau terus berbohong pada dirimu sendiri karena aku tidak mau lagi mengoreksimu.
Silahkan kau terus memalingkan muka karena aku sudah tidak peduli.
Silahkan kau tetap begitu karena kata-kata "Aku mau berubah" itu semua cuma bohong belaka.

Sudah cukup dengan segala kelakuanmu yang berpusat pada dirimu sendiri itu.
Sudah cukup dengan tingkah kekanakanmu yang selalu berakibat fatal terhadap orang lain.
Sudah cukup dengan kepalamu yang terus menolak kenyataan dan menciptakan kebohongan.
Sudah cukup dengan akibat perbuatanmu yang terus merusak dan melukai orang lain.
Sudah cukup dengan ketidakpedulianmu terhadapku, bahkan ketika aku sakit pun kamu tidak akan sadar.
Sudah cukup dengan semua luka yang kau berikan dan bahkan terus kau tambah.

Tahukah kau apa arti diam bagi wanita?
Ketika airmata sudah tidak bisa lagi mewakili perasaan sakit, sedih, dan perih yang mereka rasakan.
Ketika kekecewaan sudah tidak bisa lagi diwakilkan dengan kata-kata apapun.
Ketika sabar sudah sangat mencapai batasnya.

Mengertikah seberapa besar luka yang sudah kau buat?
Mengertikah seberapa sakit dan perihnya hingga aku sudah tidak sanggup berbuat apa-apa lagi?
Mengertikan bahwa kau sudah membuat orang sepertiku bahkan diam menanggapimu?

Silahkan.
Sudah cukup.

Sekuat apapun gw, gw juga seorang wanita.
Gw bisa nangis, gw bisa kecewa, gw bisa marah.
Gak selamanya gw harus sabar ngadapin semua tingkahmu.

Dua puluh satu agustus

21 Agustus 2011. 21-08-2011.
Cuma sekedar tanggal kok. Tanggal yang sebenernya nggak mau gw ingat sekarang ini.

Bulan Agustus tahun ini adalah bulan Ramadhan, bulan penuh berkah. Bulan yang paling tepat untuk menyambung kembali silahturahmi terhadap sesama muslim. Bulan yang paling tepat untuk saling berpacu beribadah. Dan mungkin bulan yang tepat juga untuk orang-orang yang mencari jawaban untuk semua pertanyaan yang ia cari.

Beberapa bulan lalu, ada seseorang yang berjanji mengajak gw ke kebun binatang karena gw emang pengen banget ngeliat hewan-hewan. Karena saat itu masih dalam masa kuliah, kita menundanya hingga liburan. Liburan semester pun tiba, kita pun menundanya lagi. Rencananya kita akan pergi kesana saat puasa agar bisa buka puasa disana. Seems weird huh, everybody will go to a restaurant or a cafe to do breakfasting, but I prefer go somewhere outdoor.

Manusia boleh berencana, tapi tetap Allah SWT yang menentukan. Pada bulan Ramadhan ini, sekali lagi aku minta petunjuk. Apakah ia benar-benar orang yang tepat bagiku? apakah berarti semua upayaku selama ini? Is he worthy to keep? should I keep waiting, again?

Sudah lama gw berada dalam kebimbangan. Semenjak kita berdua memutuskan untuk putus bulan Februari lalu untuk kemajuan dan kebaikan masing-masing, banyak pertanyaan yang terus terlintas. Apa benar begini? Apa yang sebaiknya dilakukan? Kenapa begini?

Aku selalu berkata, jangan menyerah. Tapi aku sudah lama menyerah.
Aku selalu berkata, jangan berhenti berjuang. Tapi aku sudah lama berhenti berjuang.
Sepertinya memang hatiku sudah tidak kuat dengan semua sikapnya yang tidak kunjung membaik.
Sepertinya memang hatiku sudah tidak kuat menanggung selalu airmata yang terus kutahan.
Sepertinya memang hatiku sudah tidak kuat menahan segala goresan dan luka yang ia buat.
Ternyata memang tidak baik untuk selalu tersenyum.

Disaat gw nggak mau inget soal kebun binatang, temen gw ngupload foto-foto saat dia ke kebun binatang kemaren. Mau nggak mau, tentu gw jadi inget soal janjinya yang benar-benar menjadi sesuatu yang sangat gw tunggu. Menggalau itu tidak baik. Terlintas bahwa selama dua tahun kebelakang kita selalu menyempatkan diri berbuka puasa outdoor, dan tahun ini tidak, dan mungkin tahun-tahun kedepannya juga tidak.

Berkata jujur kepadanya tentang semua ini memang melegakan, sekaligus membuat kesepian. Kenyataan bahwa semua yang kukatakan selalu tidak ada yang nyantol di kepalanya. Selalu dianggap angin lalu. Saat ini pun, oke kita sudah putus, dan kalau memang itu yang terbaik dan itu jawaban yang paling tepat, bagaimana kalau kita berpisah saja? Benar-benar berpisah...

Kalau berpisah denganmu bisa membuatmu menjadi orang yang lebih baik dan berguna bagi orang lain..

Sekai no Hate made ItteQ - Imoto trip to Indonesia (31 August 2011) review

Here we go again. I love it when my beloved Indonesia featured on another country's TV show, especially on Japanese TV show because they tend to do funny things. So this time I want to talk about Sekai no Hatemade Itte Q! (世界の果てまでイッテQ!) which aired on 31 August 2011. The talent of this show is Tegoshi Yuuya (NEWS), Becky, Imoto Ayako, Bobby, and a lot more. It is easy to find the video because there is JE talent on it, even I don't really interested with Tegoshi beside of his drawing xDD (yes I really want a JE drawing competition xDD) I laugh a lot on this tv show.

Actually this is the second time Imoto come to Indonesia. The first time is when she is come to Komodo Island, a unique island with endemic animal, Komodo dragon, which you can only find here on Komodo Island, Indonesia. Indonesia is a rich and beautiful country, so if you said you already go to Bali, it doesn't mean that you have already come to Indonesia. Bali is only a little, little, little part of Indonesia. There is a lot interesting place in Indonesia!

She open her segment with a scene on Monumen Nasional (Monas), on Jakarta as the background. She was talking about Jilbab (or "hijab" or "veil" in english and arabic). So funny that she tried to used it, it is kinda pointless xDD Jilbab is the practice of modesty and privacy in Islam so girls would not draw unwanted attention to themselves. Then, talk about Indonesia's flag which consist of two color, red and white, which red implies for bravery and white implies for purity. The same color with Japan's flag which consist of two color, red and white too. Imoto talking with a pedestrian and I'm pretty he didn't know anything about Japanese language xDD

So, the first segment = Imoto Ayako searching for babirusa (not babyrousa xDD See wiki, it is babirusa even on English, not babyrousa xDD). As I know, babirusa is another endemic animal so it is sooooo rare to find. She came to Sulawesi island, which still have a lot of jungle. What kind of animal is a babirusa? Babi means pig, and rusa means deer. So it is an animal which appearance like a mix of pig and deer. It has four horns, and it said that it is searching for its own death. So we have the one of three genius painter of JE, Tegoshi Yuuya to find out how is babirusa look like. I was laughing so hard seeing his draws xDD It is so scary xDD

Imoto went to Sulawesi to met the ranger of the forest. But the ranger himself never seen babirusa even he already work there as the ranger for 15 year! So, Imoto went to the zoo to see babirusa. Why babirusa addressed as an animal that searching for its own death? It is because of the horn. The horn shape is mending to its own head, so it can kill itself. So this one on the zoo have the horn cut to prevent suicidal death. So funny that Imoto said that babirusa is similar with Tegoshi Yuuya because of the searching-for-own-death side. Babirusa horn is seen as a symbol of power, so if the horn is long, the more babirusa can be so powerful, but if the horn is long, it can kill itself. Imoto pointed it is similar with Tegoshi which using an accessories which can make him dead from cold in winter just because it is look cool on him xDD

Then the second part is when Imoto trying to take a train in Jakarta. Okay, let me explain. There is two type of train for commotion people, Economy train and AC-Economy train (or change named to Commuter Line train on November). The one Imoto take on this video is Economy train which is really full on busy time. To compared, this show said that India's train is 300% from Japan's train, and Indonesia is 600%! (Just for information, that Japanese tend to take it wrong from India (インド) and Indonesia （インドネシア） because the same "Indo", I am really happy that this show can said it right xDD). Economy train is not safe with a lot of people on it, not only the people on the inside and on the door, but there is people too on the rooftop of train. Even when it is not full, there is street musician, various train vendor, and a lot of beggar on it. The shooting take on Manggarai station and Pancasila University station.

It is so funny to watch this part. First, they said that they are searching for train to take on Manggarai, but I think they can't take any of it so they move to Pancasila University station. This time, Imoto and her cameraman can go in that train. It is so packed, so I bet it must be so stink of sweat and packed. The silly thing is Imoto challenged to read a newspaper on that condition. She take Yomiuri Shinbun, but she can't read it and used it to sweep her sweat instead xDD So her conclusion is : "If you read a newspaper on the train, it will be a trash" xDD But when they get off from the train, Imoto realized that her cameramen is gone! xDD Because he is left off on the train, the cameramen try to take a picture from the door and the camera get knocked xDD So funny xDD

Then the last part is Imoto searching for Mambo fish. I myself never heard about Mambo fish xD Indonesia is a rich-of-nature country, and there is a thousand or maybe infinity kind of animal and plant you can find here. Maybe this scene take on Bunaken, a marine park on Sulawesi which is famous for its biodiversity which is so attractive for the beautiful landscape under the sea and the various sea creature, it is a famous scuba-diving spot. They are searching for Mambo fish but they can't find it, but they successfully find rare creatures like frog-fish which can walk by it hands, and mimic-octopus which can mimicking the other sea-creature. Because they can't find Mambo fish, Imoto back to Japan to search Mambo fish on a marine park called Mamboland xDD

O-shi-mai ♪
Thanks for reading till the end. I'm planning to write a review about the two trips of Aiba Masaki's Tensai Shimura Doubutsuen trip to Indonesia which take place on Taman Safari (Bogor, Jawa Barat, Indonesia) and Gembira Loka zoo (Yogyakarta, Indonesia). But only if I have time :(

See you on the next review
With love, ifat

Just another hyper day

今日は忙しいけどちょう楽しい＞＜
Maybe that was just one sentence to describe today.

Hari ini adalah hari istirahat-di-rumah-tidur-tiduran-di-kamar-sambil-download sama seperti hari-hari yang lain di liburan kali ini. Hahahaha kehidupan hanya mendownload , nonton, heboh, capek, tidur. Hahaha sounds stupid, but there is nothing I can do. Tapi entah kenapa hari ini agak lain.

Hari ini, tepatnya sekitar jam 9 lebih 10 menit, secara dadakan gw ditelpon sama cowok gw, katanya temenin dia ke kampusnya. Waaaw that was such a surprise. Err, kenapa surprise? karena gw abis berantem sama dia dan gw sama sekali nggak nyangka klo dia udah maafin gw dan blablablabla mari kita skip bagian lebay ini hahahaha

Karena gw belum ngapa-ngapain, belum mandi, belum makan, bahkan laptop masih nyala dan masih nge-download film. Spontan gw langsung lari turun dan langsung mandi. Semua obat gw yang segambreng banyaknya, langsung gw masukin ke sebuah plastik, lengkap dengan tiga kurma untuk jaga-jaga kalo ga sempet makan.Nah beres dan gw udah gak panik karena ajakan dadakan tadi hahaha.

Gw dan cowok gw naik pacar kedua cowok gw (baca: motor) ke kampus cowok gw, kampus tercinta IISIP. Kemudian kita ke bank BNI di UP, dan kemudian balik lagi ke IISIP. Perjalanan singkat ini cukup bikin capek juga. Karena bensin juga udah tiris jadi abis itu kita isi bensin dulu. Rencananya sih abis itu kita mau ke ITC Depok buat beli sesuatu-yang-dirahasiain dari gw.  Tapi ternyata diluar dugaan, ada razia banci!! eh salah, razia motor. Bukan karena cowok gw belum punya SIM ato STNK, jelas-jelas dia punya, tapi karena kaca helm gw retak jadinya ya kita menghindar aja. Kita muter jalan lewat Komplek Militer, nembus-nembus di kelapa dua.

Dan itu PERTAMA KALINYA GW LIHAT DAERAH MILITER. Oke, itu cuma komplek, tapi ada semuanya! Arena latihannya, tanknya, penampungan aer jadul, lapangannya, dan yang paling penting, RUMAH DINASNYA (?) wahahaha apa yang bikin gw terpukau dari rumah dinasnya?? GW JUGA GATAU (?). Yang paling mengejutkan buat gw adalah, ada sebuah jalan yang dijaga sama seorang tentara yang bawa senapan. Damn Cool!　ハンパじゃないよあれ！　

Muter-muter komplek militer itu bener-bener bikin pantat pegel. Gw sempet beberapa kali merasa, ah nyasar nih jangan-jangan, abisnya belok-belok melulu XD XD hahaha jadi pengen ketawa sendiri. Dan ditengah-tengah tamasya singkat perjalanan berkelok-kelok itu, gw juga mikir, kalo naik mobil pribadi gw udah mual muntah kali nih, gila jalanan belok-belok dah kayak di puncak <-- stupid. Keluar dari komplek tersebut, keluarlah kita di kelapa dua -- gundar -- gramed depok -- margo -- mall depok dan kemudian ITC Depok. Akkhirnya sampe juga, gw bener-bener seneng karena gw udah setengah tidur pas motor udah lewatin mall depok hahaha.

Dan tahu apa "benda-yang-dirahasian-dari-gw-yang-katanya-mau-dibeli-di-ITC"?? Ternyata modem. Modem si sm**t***n. あぁぁ、これか？！Gw pikir mau beli apa buat gw, ternyata buat dirinya sendiri seperti biasanya hahahaha XD Tadinya next destination adalah SMPnya cowok gw, tapi karena dia liat gw udah capek (yang sebenernya gw ngantuk luar biasa) akhirnya dia nganterin gw pulang. Tentu aja setelah sampe rumah, hal pertama yang gw lakukan adalah.... TIDUR

Ternyata hari ini ga berakhir gitu aja. Baru sebentar gw tidur, temen gw bilang mau dateng ke rumah buat ngambil data. Sepulangnya temen gw, dan baru aja gw mau tidur lagi, nyokap gw bilang klo kita mau ke dokter spesialis buat meriksa asma gw yang udah hampir tiga minggu gak reda-reda ini. And you know what, gw nungguin dokternya bisa hampir satu jam lebih. Dan gw ada di rumah sakit kurang lebih sekitar 4 jam WTH.

Dan sekarang gw gabisa tidur.
Dan sekarang udah bukan hari ini lagi!!
Hari ini udah bukan hari ini lagi! karena hari ini ya hari ini. Hayo gw bingung sendiri.
Ini harusnya post tanggal 14 Juli, dan sekarang udah tanggal 15 Juli. 
WTF. Long post.

Holiday Come--!

 Hi all~ Long time not see, ne  ♪


Berakhirnya ujian menandakan liburan telah tiba. Persetan dengan IP AAHAHAHAHAHAH *tawa tuan putri bersuara sopran* *ngakak sendiri* (≧▽≦) Nggak usah mikirin IP sampe nanti ngisi KRS <--- mahasiswa pemalas.

Liburan kali ini, nggak kemana-mana. Sama kayak liburan-liburan sebelumnya, dihabiskan dirumah dan pacaran sama obat dari dokter (atau sama dokternya hayooo hahahaha). Minggu pertama UAS, aku ngaku kalau aku ngeforsir diri sampai nggak tidur beberapa hari untuk membuat program untuk ujian programming dan saat diujiankan, program itu GATOT alias gagal total （>□<）sedih dan kesel tapi ya apa boleh buat, lain kali harus lebih berusaha!! ★ Dan karena itulah, minggu pertama berhasil dilewatkan dan minggu kedua langsung kena flu yang nggak sembuh2 karena diforsir lagi untuk ujian minggu kedua ( -_-)

Selepas ujian, akhirnya badan bener-bener tumbang （´・∀・｀） kupikir yaa, yasudahlah toh sudah liburan jadi bisa tidur di rumah. Beberapa hari kemudian, entah kenapa aku batuk-batuk terus, mending kalo batuknya biasa, ini batuknya bener-bener sakit sampe yang aku bisa cuma nangis. Udah gitu paru-paru suka tiba-tiba sakit kayak rasa ditusuk gitu. Yaaaa bisa ditebak ujungnya, aku ke sebuah rumah sakit di Depok daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan sayaa masuk UGD!! GREAT!! Mana ditanya-tanya sampe banyak banget pulaa *ketahuan dua orang itu kayaknya dokter magang deh* sampe akhirnya dokternya yang beneran dateng.

Pulang dari rumah sakit, aku langsung istirahat dan langsung minum obat karena udah bener-bener sakit itu leher dan paru-paru. Dan sampe sekarang masih suka begitu, bahkan setiap malem pun rasa itu suka kambuh ( iдi ) Aku takut kalo waktu udah berganti malam karena perasaan sakit itu terus muncul ( iдi )

Ada firasat kalo dua bulan lebih liburan ini bakal bener-bener dijalanin di rumah ( iдi )
Aaa demo, gambaranakya （>□<）
Gambatte atashi （>□<）

The first time..

Saya menangis memanggil-manggil nama dia..

Kangen..

Mungkin ini semua betul-betul perasaan yang sudah memuncak karena airmata ini selalu tertahan setiap kali mengingatnya. Entah harus gimana lagi ya Allah,aku sudah pasrah, aku serahkan semuanya kepada-Mu..

Dia, Dia, Dia

It is a bit funny..
I still loved someone who crush my heart into pieces..

Sudah sangat lama aku tidak menangis seperti itu. Terus menangis hingga badan benar-benar remuk. Terus menangis sampai rasanya mata ini panas. Terus menangis sampai rasanya hati ini ingin berteriak. Air mata itu tidak bisa lagi dikontrol kapan dia mengalir. Seakan semua airmata yang kupendam selama hari-hariku bersamanya semua meluber keluar dari dalam hati. Why I still loved him?!

Terakhir kali aku menangis seperti itu sekitar dua tahun yang lalu, karena orang yang sama. Di saat aku harus memilih antara orang yang kucintai dan sahabatku. Aku sayang keduanya, jadi aku memutuskan agar membiarkan mereka bersama, meski pada akhirnya aku tidak bisa lagi berbohong pada diriku sendiri.

Saat ini, lagi-lagi aku harus memilih. Apa aku akan membiarkannya berjalan di tempat dan tetap menjadi orang yang lari dari masalah ATAU aku akan membuatnya maju dan menjadi orang yang lebih baik. Keduanya membunuhku. Menghancurkan hatiku, bukan lagi menjadi kepingan, tapi sudah menjadi serpihan.

Aku capek.
Badanku capek.
Hatiku capek.
Jiwaku capek.

Kata-katanya itu, menghancurkan hatiku, semua mimpi-mimpiku, semua kepercayaanku dihancurkannya dengan mudah. Saat itu juga aku tahu bahwa aku sudah tidak lagi mendapatkan kasih sayang darinya. Dia benar-benar menutup hatinya karena ia juga tidak tahu apa yang harus dilakukannya untuk dapat terus maju.

Apakah dengan mencoba mencintai orang lain, dia akan bisa membuat dirinya lebih baik? Who knows.
Kenapa dia selalu berkata seperti itu disaat ia sedang kesal? Seakan semua kekesalannya selalu ditumpahkannya padaku meski bukan aku yang menyebabkan kekesalannya.

Dia, kenapa harus dia?
Kenapa harus aku?
Itu pertanyaan yang sangat ababil dan sangat mengganggu kondisi psikologis.
Pertanyaan yang benar harusnya: KENAPA AKU MENCINTAI DIA?

Well, jawabannya mudah. Bagaikan jarum dan benang. Kunci dan gemboknya. Hati ini terus memilihnya, meskipun benci, kesal, sebal. Jiwaku terus berteriak menginginkannya, tapi apa yang sebaiknya kulakukan kalau mungkin ini memang jawaban yang terbaik. Aku berhasil membuatnya benci padaku, tapi kenapa aku harus merasa sesakit ini. Dia harus benci aku, untuk bsia maju. Aku sudah bersiap dengan rasa sakitnya, tapi ternyata tetap terasa sesakit ini. Ini demi dia, aku harus bisa melewati semua ini. Harus bisa.

He is always like that. Never change from the high school time.
Aku mau bisa ketemu dia dan memberikan senyuman yang terbaik. Tapi mungkin untuk saat ini tidak mungkin bisa. Aku harus mengumpulkan serpihan-serpihan hatiku yang dihancurkan olehnya. Melihat wajahnya pun aku tidak mau.

I want to move on.
I must move on.

New morning. New life. New sky. New smile.
Fight, myself! Gambare, atashi!

My wish..

I really wish for it..
For my entire 18 years living..
No one know it..
Yet I really crave for it..

But no one realize it..
No one know..

Will it come at 19th?
I guess the answer is still no.

I guess that because of my smartness so they cant..
Or maybe I was never special for them..
Who knows? yet I really crave for it..

I really wish for..

Goodbye, my love..

I'll do everything to make you hate me, and forget me :)
I'll do everything to make you crush me, so I won't back for you.
If this mean "happiness" for you :'*
This is the way I love you..

I dont want to make you confused anymore..
This is the way I love you..

I dont want to make you stress anymore..
This is the way I love you..

I dont want to make you sad anymore..
This is the way I love you..

Just hate me, forget me..
I bet you now hate me so much, don't you?
I bet you now want me to disappear, don't you?

 ☆。:+ヾ(*゜∀゜*)ノ+:。☆!
21.12.2009 @1.21 am ♥ ♥♪
Love my Flirtatious Teaser boy♥

If I GONE and make you HAPPY, then I'll do it.
Goodbye, I wish the happiness for you..
Goodbye, my love.. 
2011.04.05

New Year and Circle of Live

Angin malam, dan suara-suara kembang api yang masih meriah sampai hari ini.

Aaah, kamarku panas :(

Setelah sekian lama nggak nulis blog, jadi bingung ya mau nulis apa.

Sebagian orang merayakan tahun baru dengan pergi kemana, jalan-jalan kemana, main-main kemana. Tapi buatku, tanggal 31 Desember itu nggak lebih dari hari untuk mengganti kalender.

Nothing important.

Kembang api yang sangat banyak itu sebenarnya mengganggu. Suaranya mengganggu. Kalo semisal ada kembang api tanpa suara, gimana ya? haha..

Dari jendela kamarku, bisa terlihat dalam berapa detik ada berapa kembang api yang meluncur..

Aduh, badan udah remuk karena bergumul di kereta api. Rasanya ngantuk sekali, tapi sulit untuk menutup mata karena suara yang terlalu berisik :(

Dan lagi, aku di rumah hanya berdua dengan adikku. Orangtua dan adikku yang lain mudik. Inginnya sih pada hari itu aku bertemu dengan kekasih hati, tapi ternyata tidak bisa.. miris ya.. haha

Itu sekilas tentang malam tahun baru.

Well, apa artinya merayakan tahun baru dengan meledakkan uang (kembang api), membakar uang (bakar-bakaran)? Toh gak harus tahun baru juga bisa kan?

Nothing important.
 
Have fun, toh itu memang fungsinya uang. Haha mungkin itu jawaban bagi sebagian orang. Hah, bodoh sekali.

Baka da to omou.

Ya tapi itu kan pikiran sebagian orang, aku sih tetap dengan pikiranku. Aku bisa membuat acara bakar-bakar diluar waktu tahun baru, ataupun bisa beli kembang api yang biasa aja setiap hari. Haha..

Agak bodoh juga klo inget merayakan tahun baru sama aja dengan merayakan kembalinya daur putar bumi ke awal. Apa pernah kita merayakan tumbuhnya rumput? Manusia yang membuat event itu sendiri, padahal perputaran itu tidak akan pernah ada awal maupun akhir.

Circle of life, desu ne?

Selama masih hidup, tahun baru akan terus ada. Apa sih sebenernya tujuan dari tahun dibuat? Untuk dihitung kan? Bukan untuk dipestakan. Geez.